So much things left unsaid.
You will never understand if you never want to hear.
I'm trying.
Yeah, I'm not the best.

Ya, aku manusia biasa.
Penuh khilaf.
Sejuta kesilapan.


Ya, aku manusia dangkal.
Penuh salah.
Sejuta penyesalan.


Namun,
Aku cuba.
Menjadi yang lebih baik,
dan akan terus mencuba.




“Aku adalah manusia biasa dan aku bukanlah manusia yang terbaik di antara kamu. Apabila kamu semua melihat perbuatanku benar maka ikutilah aku tetapi apabila kamu melihat perbuatanku salah maka perbetulkanlah aku.”

—	Saidina Abu Bakar As-Siddiq r.a

Please give me the best solution to stop crying.
So that I could throw away all this everyday tears.
Uurrghhhh...
;(((

Banyak nye kerja sekarang.
Xde masa untuk diri sendiri.
omg, semalam super busy.
I beli food for breakfast, tp smp ke sudah xsempat makan.
Last2 buang je.
My ouh my!
Help me!

Mencari diri sendiri.
Memperbaiki kesalahan.
Membuang kekhilafan.
Sesungguhnya aku manusia serba kekurangan
Ajarkan aku.
Tunjukkan aku.
Agar kita bisa bersatu.
Amin...

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah

Menangis sudah
Merayu sudah
Layan orang lain sudah
Berdoa sudah
Solat hajat sudah
Istikharah sudah

Tapi perasaan tetap macam tu, malah semakin kuat.
Ada ape2 lagi yang I xbuat?
Ada sape2 boleh bantu i?

And today,
menangis jeeeeee lagi.
Need your shoulder.
;(

I have no idea.
This past few days, I cant stop crying.
Wherever I go, whatever I do, I'll cry.
Kat ofis, kat rumah, tgh drive, tgh mkn, every minutes and every hour.
Oh God please help me.
It seems i'm getting worst.
Sometimes macam terfikir nak jmp psychologists mtk counseling.
And I nak mintak ubat to control stress, to control my emotion.
Seriously, im getting serious.

Because of one thing/person, my life totally change...
I do regret.
I want my happiness back.
I want my love back.

Oh Allah,
ringankanlah dugaan ini...
Jika ditakdirkan dia untukku,
permudahkanlah dugaan ini,
bantulah kami.
Namun jika sebaliknya,
kau tutplah pintu hatiku serapat2nya dari terus mengasihi dia.
Luputkanlah memori2 indah kami,
agar dapat aku teruskan hidup ini dengan senyuman.

I dah xkuat lagi.
I dah terlalu lemah.
I dah xmampu berdiri lagi.
I'm trying to accept the reality,
but the most important thing is,
I cant pretend that I dont love you.

Oh God....
;((((

I pun harap I boleh tukar segala ape yg I rasa ni jadi ape yang u rasa sekarang.

This song really suits me...



I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

8th December.
8th.
I miss this date.
Every 8th should be my happiest day.
But now, everythg has gone....


Happy 13months sayang, and this time, with tears... ;((

Kalau aku ramai kawan kat sini, xde masalah.
Ni x, xde sape.
Suma jauh2.
Shah Alam lain, Gombak lain...
Kat Shah Alam dulu suma bertumpu kat situ,
sekarang suma bpecah, jauh2..
Haihhhh
Susah nak bergerak sana sini ape lagi malam-malam.


Kalau I ada orang lain, I pasti dah ajak orang lain....
I pun segan nak asyik2 nak mintak tolong you.
Tapi you lah paling dekat dengan i.
Entahlah, you know it, but.....

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia...

Ingatkan berani sangat.
Komen berapi2.
Tanak kalah.
Lepas tu delete.
Jadah ape ntah.
Ingatkan berani sangat.
Stand with your words la kan.
Tak perlu delete kot.
Jantan xde telor cmtu ah.
Looser!

Couple dah breakup jangan gaduh di Facebook, pesanan ikhlas

Kembalikan temanku..

Kekasihku..

Syurgaku..

Tanpa dia, malam menemaniku

Sepi memelukku

Bulan..

Jangan biar siang

Biar alam ini kelam

Biar ia sepi sepertiku..

”

Kekadang (hari2 sebenarnya), aku 'terasa' la jugak.
Tapi nak buat cmne, aku xleh ubah.....
Betullah, aku jugak yang suka sakitkan hati sendiri.


p/s : jeles tgk org lain bahagia, happy2. aku? shit.